Waiting.

What a journey it has been for you,
and it hasn't been smooth road;
eaten by anxiety,
feel weary and alone.
Desires pressing hard
upon a heart that seems concealed;
Long to know His will,
yet it has not been revealed.
Try opening your hands
to what He wants to give to you;
but it’s hard to loosen up your grasp,
as your knuckles are turning blue.

Longing to relax,
just to feel a sense of peace;
how long will this pain last?
When will you be set free?
“For I know the plans I have for you,”
it says the Lord declares;
yet it’s hard to understand-
when your lot does not seem fair.

How, then, do you wait on Him,
with decisions on your hands?
Waiting with torture in their voice,
making high demands.
This life, it is not simple;
it’s filled with sacrifice;
normal mediocrity
beginning to entice-
the deepest depths beyond your heart
that no one can see into;
hunger pains you can’t resist,
but there’s nothing you can do.

What does it mean
to serve with joy
when robbed of all control?
How do you lift
your hands and voice
with such a broken soul?

Trying to look forward,
and focus on the race;
wondering if this long hard run
will still land you in last place-
in the competition of your desires;
a war waging in your soul;
it’s just so tough to trust in Him,
and willingly let go.

Wish I could take this from you,
steal this burden from your hands;
comprehension is so far from me,
I just can’t understand.
But I will lift a prayer for you
when all is said and done;
That He will take you in His arms,
let you gracefully come undone.
I’ll ask He give you strength,
as you’re called in Him to wait;
and in it, that you’ll find joy
as you gladly anticipate-
all the things He holds for you,
with this bright future in His plans;
surrounded by the ones you love,
who will start to understand;
and know how best to love you,
affirming that they care;
that you will feel His presence,
never question if He’s there;
and I lift up most of all,
that you keep in sight His kingdom;
your love abound more and more in knowledge,
depth of insight, and in wisdom;
so you can discern what is best,
pure and blameless before Christ.
Always remember He gave His all to You-
for you, He gave His life.