Chariots of Fire

I feel so small and worthless
In this calling that You gave;
I feel like I can’t do this-
can’t hold it all in place.
I wish I weren’t so little
next to giants that surround me.
I need some help-
a stool or stilts,
a lift so I can see.

At times I just don’t get it-
why did You choose this path?
I don’t have much to offer-
so much in which I lack.
You’ve made it clear I need this,
and You’ve called me to this life;
but incompetence defines me
All I am cannot suffice.

A mountain stands before me
but I have no hiking gear;
You say You’ve gone before me,
but I don’t see You here.
How do I climb this mountain
when I am not equipped?
What if I miss a step or two-
what if I fall or slip?

Did David ever feel this-
standing in Goliath’s wrath?
With one small stone
He won the fight-
God’s glory showed its path.

Supposed to be a leader-
yet I’m terrified and shy.
I feel alone,
can’t look ahead,
as I often wonder why…
Why do You look upon me
with favor in Your eyes?
Why did you come after me-
redeem my sinful life?
Why do you even bother?
So much patience with my will;
As I’m stubbornly resisting
The grace You give me still.

Surrender is all I have to do,
cannot embrace this depth.
You tell me it’s ok I’m weak-
alright that I’m inept.
You are exceedingly stronger
than any living man;
and You will show Your majesty
as through my life You work Your plan.
Though I don’t see You beside me
You promise You are there,
open my eyes so I can see-
Lord, take away my fear.

This blindness is distracting me
from the life to which I aspire,
Will You open my eyes
so I can see
the Chariots of fire?
Because You are fighting for me
each and every day;
I need to acknowledge that this is true,
need to hit my knees and pray.
Then I will find a peaceful heart
as anxiety dissolves;
You are my Rock, my Fortress-
Lord, You are my All in All.


"He said, 'do not be afraid, for those who are with us are more than those who are with them.' Then Elisha prayed and said, 'O LORD, please open his eyes that he may see.' So the LORD opened the eyes of the young man, and he say, and behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha." -2 Kings 6:16-17

"Moses said to the LORD, 'You have been telling me, 'lead these people,' but You have not let me know whom You will send with me. You have said, 'I know you by name and you have found favor with me.' If You are pleased with me, teach me Your ways so I may know You and continue to find favor with You. Remember that this nation is Your people.' The LORD replied, 'My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.'"